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rhonda ([personal profile] kinkapoodles) wrote2006-12-28 12:32 am

Crazy person is at it again. I must rant!!!!

I am ranting about the following that was posted in an LJ account and was directed to myself and Faylinn.  It's the same person I've bitched about before and here I am bitching about her again.  It's nice to be able to let off a little steam on here.

I went and deleted all of my photos from Photobucket, and all of emmyjean's as well. "We" only used that site to upload pics for TalkCSI, and since we aren't going back there we don't need those photos anymore. I have them all on my hard drive and except for my portraits and such, the bulk of the pics can be found on various galleries on the Net.

I think by now most of the people at Talk have figured out that "lyne" and "Hidinginmyeyes" were the same person. After I got basically run out of there due to the hostility I faced because of my differing opinions on Danny/Flack, I went back in with a new ID. Well, I am a Gemini, so there are usually at least two of me. So yes, Faylinn and 1CSIMfan, you were right. It was me all the time. At least I didn't fake my own death like I read that someone there did. I prefer to think of it as I went into witness protection and assumed a new identity to protect myself from D/F slashers who would have beaten me to death with dildos and pelted me with condoms and tubes of lube. In a moment of insanity I allowed myself to be sucked into that whole scene, mostly because I didn't know what I was getting into. Once I did, I ran like all the demons of hell were chasing me.

On the subject of slash: I have no problem with homosexuality. I support gay marriage. And I've said this all before, so why am I repeating it now? Because accusing someone of being homophobic seems to be the definitive response any time anyone asks the slash fans what the deal is. They can't seem to tell you why they prefer it over a het pairing; they just turn it on you and ask you what *your* problem is. What really killed it for me was when I started reading stories and realized that for the most part slash is merely a vehicle to peddle smut and pornography. That was why I was ridiculed on Talk. I saw a romantic relationship between Danny and Flack, and I wasn't really into the sexual aspect of it. And it was like I had sprouted a second head or something. "What? Slash without smut? What planet are YOU from!!!"

I tried to write an actual story. I thought my "Danny and Don buy a house" story was actually pretty good, but I doubt anyone even read it because there was no smut. I abandoned the story and deleted it from FanFiction.net. I deleted all my stories except for the Angie and Don story and a one-shot where Danny and Don sleep together but it's not slashy.

Homosexuality is fine. Pornography is not. And I don't want to be a contributor to it. So no more slash for me. Simple as that. My Danny and Don are very close friends, but that's it. Danny's in love with Lindsay and my Don has found the love of his life in an ex-con named Angie Watson. More proof, in fan fiction anyway, that unlikely pairings can occur.

I was thinking about starting an Eddie Cahill forum. One really just for him, and one that would be suitable for his younger fans, which means no smut. I apparently sprouted a THIRD head when I proposed that idea. A clean Eddie forum? Say whaaat? Like it's a cosmic impossibility, and that anyone who would dare to suggest such a thing should be beaten to death with the dildos I mentioned earlier. If these women had under-age daughters, would they truly want them exposed to the bulk of D/F slash? REALLY? Come on. Faylinn said something that I'm not clear on but basically sounded like "good luck getting any members", saying that there was nothing on two Eddie threads on Talk and whatever on her site and I'm like say what? Oh, is that because for the past month on Talk I've almost single-handedly kept the Eddie threads from dropping to the second page? Which I guess means that I amount to nothing. Well, guess what? I'm tired of dancing around on tiptoes trying not to offend you, Faylinn. I'm old enough to be your grandmother. You call yourself an adult. I haven't seen much evidence of it so far. I'm trying to see the bigger picture, think about someone else besides myself. I think about my nine-year-old niece turning teen in a few short years and falling in love with some TV star. And her going to the internet for info on him and what does she see? Smut? Pornography? Not if I can help it. If I can create a place where girls like her can go and worship Eddie in a clean, safe environment, what the FUCK is wrong with that!!! They may find the smut somewhere else eventually but at least I have the satisfaction of knowing that they didn't get it from me.

Now I have my fangirl lust for Eddie and Flack, and I'll be the first to admit it. I've said before that my love for Eddie is a combination of fangirl lust and motherly adoration. I was 23 years old when he was born, but he is still a grown man and a very attractive one at that. But I try to keep anything smutty in the privacy of my own mind. Granted, I wrote a sex scene in my Angie and Don story, and I wrote it from both of their viewpoints (and that was fun!) but I wrote it tastefully. It's on Fanfiction.net and it's appropriately rated for adult content. I could be wrong but I haven't seen any warnings on Talk concerning content that may be inappropriate for teens and children, but there have been avatars and banners that suggest Danny and Don engaging in sex complete with captions, and if it's offensive to me, what would a 13-year old think?

So maybe I'm just an old prude, but if I am, at least I am a prude who is trying to see the bigger picture and not contribute any more ugliness to a world that has way too much of it to begin with. That's just me. No more apologies. Take it or leave it.ok

Of course I must respond to that so, here it is:

Also, I would like to add that I specifically mention Danny/Lindsay smut but only because I do not see Lindsay as a slut at all (still on the fence about my feelings for Lindsay until all this secret past shit is totally revealed). I do stand by my opinions about the fictions though. 

Let me step up to the plate now: cuddle_party.gif

I agree with you Fay. Normally I wouldn't even consider making a thread like this but I was specifically mentioned too. So, all bets are off.

I suspected hidinginmyeyes was lyne all along. You see, hiding mentioned fanfics in one of her posts. I pm'd her and asked about them. She was stupid enough to link me to lyne's (hiding's) ff.net page which in turn had a link to a LiveJournal account (ucantbesirius), which turned out to be lyne's (hiding's) LJ. I'm sorry but that was just the stupidest thing she could have done. Why delete your previous LJ account because you didn't like comments and then turn around and open another one and then be stupid enough to link the very person that pissed you off? scratchhead.gif

I did refrain from saying anything on Talk about the dual accounts because I know that lyne didn't have a good experience on there. I thought maybe hiding would have a better experience but you can't fake a new identity forever. Eventually, the original one will leak out.

I have a feeling that lyne/hiding doesn't really know how to listen to people very well. She totally took all of Fay's comments the wrong way and she also totally ignored some of mine.

About the story "Danny and Don Buy a House", don't even start that shit with me that nobody read it or liked it. I told you I liked it more than once. I reviewed it, commented on it and you have the nerve to say nobody liked it. It seems you always want to be accepted. How many fucking times do we have to keep doing that?

I'm done with that. Screw all your stories and a big wtf.gif with Don & the con. If you love Flack so much, why would you pair him up with a con. Don't you know him well enough to know how seriously he takes his job and abiding by the law. Yeah, I can see him in a relationship with her. sick.gif rolleyes.gif You say you don't like slash but why in the hell do you write stories where Danny & Flack spend the night with each other and cuddle? Are you a slash wannabe?

Who mentioned being homophobic? That would be YOU. You keep saying homosexuality is ok time and time again. Seems to me you're the homophobic. If you don't like slash then that's just fine with me. Nobody said you had to like it and nobody is making you like it. Yes, I like the smut but if you've ever taken the time to read the DF fics out there you would see that even though there's lots of good smut, it is a fact (proven in the stories) that they are in an established relationship and are in love with each other. What's wrong with some good slash smut among two guys in love? abso-fucking-lutey nothing!!!

Did I miss something? Where is that law that states homosexuality is fine but pornography is not? That's just your opinion and it doesn't really hold any weight with me.

Don't even start in with me about your 9 year old niece. I have two boys ages 8 & 10 and when they do get on the internet, you can bet your ass that I monitor everything they look at. I also have parental filters so they can't look at certain things. So don't be acting like the "smut" is out there for anybody to read. It's not my problem if some parents either don't care or don't take the time to monitor what their children do on the internet.

If you open up an Eddie thread, that's entirely up to you but I have to ask too..if the Eddie threads die out on Talk (because some people would like some conversation instead of one picture after another) what do you think will happen on an Eddie board? Do you even have a clue why the Eddie threads died out? I'll refrain from saying but I can assure you they are alive and well today.

You wanna know why I prefer slash over het? I'll tell you why but first I must clarify. I don't prefer slash over het. I prefer Danny/Flack and Danny/Speedle over het. For one, there's not much het smut that's any good. Why is DL smut so much better than DF smut? All the DL writers portray Lindsay as nothing more than a slut who is always chasing Danny, always wears a skirt (for easy access), and they always fuck without any protection at all. The only time you'll see DF not using protection is when they are in an established relationship. Besides, I prefer slash over het because I have been married for 17 years, have a very active sex life, and I get all the het smut I want/need just from my own sex life. Can you say that? So, I enjoy reading about Danny/Flack because I love them both and I love them both together. Call them gay all you want, but they're just two guys who happen to be in love with each other. What's wrong with that? NOTHING!!

You, at 51, having fangirl lust over someone young enough to be your own son, that's just wrong. You were 23 when he was born. How can you lust after him the way you do? Motherly adoration I can see but anything else...
scared.gif scared.gif

Also, if you have a problem with the banners and icons on Talk, then I suggest you take it up with the appropriate people (MrsGiovinazzo and Top41 are the mods in NY). Complain to them. That's all I have for now. I'm sure I'll think of more later.

And no more apologies from you? Thank God!! yahoo.gif I'm sick of your apologies anyway. Also, I know you've been over here and I know you'll read this thread. Feel free to comment before I ban your ass. We know when you're on here even if you're just looking around.

ETA: Damn, I took so long to post, that Jules beat me to it. laughing.gif You're right. She is disturbed. I'd even venture to say that she's schizo. Poor Eddie..living in the same state as her. I hope she doesn't decide to stalk him.pe your cut contents here.

END OF RANT...I feel better now.

[identity profile] orison75.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 10:25 am (UTC)(link)
*shakes head*

You know what? This is another reason why I'm happy I'm keeping myself away from Talk lately...

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It's really sad that a lot of people have either stopped going over to Talk or just lurk. I like a good debate. I enjoy seeing other's opinions whether I agree with them or not.

I have to admit that I don't post as much on Talk as I used to. But for a while it was nothing but fangirl squee. I'm guilty of that sometimes too but I also like good conversation.

Orison, I hope you make your way back to Talk. You're one of my favorites over there. :o)

[identity profile] orison75.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 09:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you make your way back to Talk. You're one of my favorites over there. :o)

Awww, thank you! :) Don't worry, I still check the board two or three times a day and post whenever I feel I have something interesting to say. The fangirl in me also likes to squee over the boys' hotness but it's usually the character that makes me fall in love with a show...

Btw, I got your card today, thank you so much! *g*

[identity profile] iluvroadrunner6.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 02:54 pm (UTC)(link)
all the crazies seem to go to talk, don't they?

...hee...i just lurk in the shipper forum now, i don't even go near the NY ones. which could be kind of bad.

...although it does make me sad that the eddie love is dwindling. but eddie doesn't need that kind of love.

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 08:02 pm (UTC)(link)
The Eddie love is starting to resurface now.

I think we were all just spooked by this "motherly adoration/obsession" thing.

Why do the crazies end up on Talk? Luckily, most of them don't stay too long.

[identity profile] iluvroadrunner6.livejournal.com 2006-12-29 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
that's good. because eddie deserves love.

they all wind up on talk because talk is a crazy magnet. there are so many people.

i feel like i get lost in the crowd most of the time, so to speak.

[identity profile] laguera25.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 07:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, wow. I'm not a slasher, but I'm still irritated with her screed about "pornography." From what I gather, any story that has sex in it to any degree is porn. It's a ridiculous, sweeping generalization that makes my teeth ache. Most of my smut is fairly understated, I think, and yet, because I mention that there's bedspring bungee going on between two committed, consenting adults, it's bad? Feh.

And I'm not touching the Angie Watson business.

She can adore Eddie all she pleases, but the fact that she admits to both maternal and sexual feelings for both Flack and Eddie disturbs and squicks me. Profoundly.

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
The pornography part didn't sit well with me either. When I read that porn is not ok..I was like WTF?? I see nothing wrong with porn (I'd rather call "love scenes") in any fanfiction when it's well written. Geez, it's a part of life. Let's face it, people have S-E-X.

laguera, I don't blame you for not touching the Angie Watson business. I think I voiced my opinion about that on Talk/BC. It doesn't matter to me what people write, It's just fiction but when I get told that slash is wrong, I have a problem with Angie. Once we were also told that Danny/Flack was wrong (by the same person) because what if Carmine & Eddie read the threads and did we think Carmine and Eddie were gay.

I was speechless. My love of Danny/Flack is just that: Danny/Flack. It has nothing to do with Carmine & Eddie except that they happen to play them. Eddie & Carmine (more than Eddie) reads Talk quite often and they are well aware of Danny/Flack. Carmine has even read some DF and thought it was interesting. He wasn't offended at all.

laguera, that is exactly what bothers me the most. She goes on and on in her LJ about having motherly adoration for Eddie and then she goes on and on about lusting after him. **scratches head** It disturbs me too. Is it healthy to have both of those feelings for the same person? I think not.

lagura, I love your icon. That's one of my favorite Flack scenes. He was literally speechless. Bad Beat is one of my favorite episodes. The entire team was great.

[identity profile] laguera25.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The pornography part didn't sit well with me either. When I read that porn is not ok..I was like WTF?? I see nothing wrong with porn (I'd rather call "love scenes") in any fanfiction when it's well written. Geez, it's a part of life. Let's face it, people have S-E-X.

Bite your tongue. They most certainly do not. Or if they do, it's not an enjoyable business. Nope. I know that when Flack and his love get it on in my 'verse, she just lies back and thinks of England Central Park, and the only reason Flack achieves orgasm is because it's his manly duty.

And if Flack loves Danny, it's only because he performs the perfect beer belch on game night.

aguera, I don't blame you for not touching the Angie Watson business. I think I voiced my opinion about that on Talk/BC. It doesn't matter to me what people write, It's just fiction but when I get told that slash is wrong, I have a problem with Angie. Once we were also told that Danny/Flack was wrong (by the same person) because what if Carmine & Eddie read the threads and did we think Carmine and Eddie were gay.

Well, I'm not touching the Angie business because I never read it, and because I don't write the most plausible fic, either.

Slash is never going to turn my crank, but to say it's wrong is patently priggish and ludicrous. I'm sure Eddie and Carmine, two intelligent, sane men, can differentiate between themselves and the characters they play, and therefore, are not threatened by slash. I thought she could as well, but now I wonder.

She goes on and on in her LJ about having motherly adoration for Eddie and then she goes on and on about lusting after him. **scratches head** It disturbs me too. Is it healthy to have both of those feelings for the same person? I think not.

I don't begrudge her lust. Hell, I hope I'm that randy at 51. But to have it co-exist with "maternal instincts"? ~shudder~

My icon was made by Lj user="aureliapriscus"> and is gankable.

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 09:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I didn't read the Angie fic either. Just skimmed through it. Just not my thing. OOC's are fine but a warning would be nice. If I know up front they are OOC, at least I know what the author is thinking. I've read OOC, AU (everybody with wings was interesting), and OC's. Some I like, some I didn't like. It's nothing against the author if I don't like a fic.

I too hope I feel that way at 51 but let's just keep it with lust (not maternal thing please).

You made me LOL with "They most certainly do not. Or if they do, it's not an enjoyable business."

What was I thinking? SEX is only for procreation, not enjoyment.

It's weird but I never liked slash until Danny/Flack. Not really sure why. I just love both of them (Danny is my favorite of the two though) and I love them together but if it don't float your boat, that's fine too.

[identity profile] faces-of-angels.livejournal.com 2006-12-28 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Uhm that's *has no words for this*. maybe I'm wrong but she's acting like a child.

I went and deleted all of my photos from Photobucket,

I have to say that I'm not in the position to talk about her or her post over in Talk because I'm not very often in TalkCSI so here is what I have to say about this.

I tried to write an actual story. I thought my "Danny and Don buy a house" story was actually pretty good, but I doubt anyone even read it because there was no smut. I abandoned the story and deleted it from FanFiction.net. I deleted all my stories

The story was good but I can't understand why she has deleted her stuff. Okay, comments are great and everybody loves them. I've read some fanfics and nobody has written a comment but the author didn't delete his/her stuff. That's stupid to delete it *shakes head*

About the other stuff I don't want to talk about it. If I should do it I would sitting here for hours.

Well I wanna write more but my english is bad ;)

1csimfan, hope you are feeling better and your reply to her post is great ;).

*hugs*

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-29 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Awwww, I think your english is just fine. :0)

Yeah, I am feeling much better now that I have gotten that I have ranted.

**hugs back**

[identity profile] springmoon60.livejournal.com 2006-12-29 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
Ah Rhonda. Will you adopt me?

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-29 06:01 am (UTC)(link)
Of course I'll adopt you sweetie?

[identity profile] faylinn-drake.livejournal.com 2006-12-29 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
Rhonda, if you adopt Joanne, will that make her my step-daughter? Our love child? Because you know you are my hawt mama. ;)

This whole clusterfuck with lyne/hidinginmyeyes/batshit-crazy-person just makes me want to scream.

The thing that really gets me is the fact that she used to be obsessed with Danny/Flack (disturbingly so), and then when we didn't convert to her bullshit about an 'evolved union' she got miffed and fled. Then, when she first came back as hidinginmyeyes, she talked about Danny/Lindsay and said she didn't like slash. But I don't know what the hell she thinks because her comments always seem to go back to slash as if she's only pretending she doesn't like D/F. When she wrote that damn story about them buying a house (as if these two NYPD cops who barely sleep would give a rat's ass about a jacuzzi tub, but of course I'm just a perverted bitch who never agrees with her), I distinctly remember her saying something to the effect that they'd do it in the shower but that she couldn't write the smut and--hold your wigs in place, ladies--said something about another person writing it for her. She also talked, numerous times, about thinking about them having sex. So it's alright to think it so long as you don't actually write it? Whatever. Although her description of them being with her all the time (in the shower? um, no thanks) was kind of disturbing...

As for her Eddie board--I think it's kind of pointless. tv.com has a forum for Eddie and it has one thread in it, with only one post. Why not just build on something that already exists? tv.com isn't full of porn. Hell, I don't know any D/F fans (which is who she wants to avoid) that even bother with the forums considering what I've seen in the NY forum on there. She killed two Eddie threads on Talk and wants to open a whole message board? Sorry, but I have enough links in my favorites folder. If I want to talk about Eddie, I'll do it on Talk or BC.

[identity profile] kinkapoodles.livejournal.com 2006-12-30 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
Ah yes honey, did i forget to tell you? We now have a daughter.

I forgot about the stories she wrote where they were lovers and lived together but she only implied they had sex..never actually wrote it but it was swimming around that head in hers along with that other personality.

You're right..the only place I'll be talking about Eddie is on BC and Talk but don't forget our messenger conversations. SNAP!!

[identity profile] faylinn-drake.livejournal.com 2006-12-30 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
Sweet, I'm a mom! Is it bad that my kid is older than me? *blinks*

The only things that I distinctly remember about her D/F stories are that they were wildly out-of-character, they loved that jacuzzi tub, and there was a scene with an overly-specific description of one of them making a salad...Of course, I didn't actually read the stories, you just felt the need to copy-and-paste parts of them into messenger for me, so I'm sure I missed things.

Yes, we talk about anything and everything on messenger--but did you have to bring up the SNAP?!?! *lol*